its weird to imagine what just happend tonight. i found friends that i never knew could exist. i found sadness and anger and jealousy that i didnt know was still in me. characteristics were brought out of me that i didnt know i was still capable of. i stayed faithful and reliable when you werent yet again. i stayed true to you when you pushed me aside. im so close to giving up. you can only be pushed away so much. until you begin to give up. myself, i am strong and thankfully someone called me strong tngt. someone important in my life. your missing out on alot and i see this friendship moving forward into replacing sean. something i need but something i am also scared of. i am appreciative for the attepmt at helping me. i know you were busy and my plan of focusing my anger backfired. i apologize for putting so much on you.