a walk to remember

Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.

truth. it seems like each day that passes by makes me more sad. it makes me think that im not worth trav's time anymore. its been about four days that ive called and he wont answer my texts or calls at all, wont call or text back. i wish i could prove sean wrong along with every other one of my friends who doesnt believe you can do it. i know you and me can prove them wrong. i try to beleive you when you say that you will change for me. i loved you once and i still have that love for you but you havent made me feel so secure about it all in a long time. we ised to be bestfriends and though we still are we have fallen apart. we have drifted into people who arent who we used to be. i need you to be there for me just like you need me to be there for you. you are everything that once belonged to me. you are everything i use to be. you are all i cared about for a long time and as long as you were backing me up i was fine with messing up the rest of my life because we were the only thing that made since to me. i know what you did i knew how you acted but it was something i was smart enough to not let my heart get into. i can never give you my heart. you walk around with a piece of it everyday anyways, and that alone is way to much for you to handle. you arent careful enough you dont treat it delicatly. you kick it around like a soccer ball. though you are a star you break me apart slowly everyday. i cant lose you in my life but you allowing it to happen. you promised we would always be friends through it all. i need you to keep that promise to me. i need you to be there when i fall apart. i need you to pick up all the pieces.