"jammellaa: im sorry
jammellaa: shelby
jammellaa: and im not saaying anything more
jammellaa: but this
jammellaa: you are a beautiful girl, and you deserve more than you get
jammellaa: don't settle, you're better than that"
truth. my friends back me up twenty four seven. they dont understand why i stay with sean for what he has done but they back me up. they dont judge me for being so stupid and all they do is be there for me if i ever need to talk to someone. i dont know why i am so stupid about being with sean. why cant i just leave. i wonder why i need him so much sometimes because i wish that i didnt. he isnt the boy i used to know. and i dont know if i can think of him any diffrently than i do. but i want to try. he is everything to me and all i wanted was for him and me to be okay. why did he ruin it why did he make me so sad and break my heart. i dont know if anyone can pick up all the pieces because they are shatterd all over the place. i know some day i will be okay but i dont want to risk my heart ever again. i dont want to be lied to and i dont want to just think that i am happy, i dont want to have to fake a smile and laugh. i want to smile and laugh for real. i dont think i will ever believe a boy in my life. why cant one guy prove girls wrong and make us believe and know that they arent all the same and that they arent always going to break us down. love is a lie. and we believe what we see in the movies and the shows by it being this big fairytale ending and loveing unconditionally no bodywill get hurt and everything will happen to make you feel better.
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