I can't stop thinking about my birthday. How I drove all the way to your house because I was "too drunk to drive" and needed you to drive me home. I can't stop thinking about how scared I was that I would wake up and you'd be gone. I can't stop thinking about how that was the last sleepover we had, the last time you even tried to kiss me. I miss you more than ever Sean. This is honestly the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. None of it makes sense. My life without you doesn't make sense. I need you back, I wish you took me with you. Don't make me wait too long to see you again; make sure you wait for me to be with you; wherever you are and send signs that your with me from now until then. I love you so much cutie. I always have. I never imagined I would lose you; I never wanted to. Your my best friend, my first love; your my Noah. How can it be possible that your gone? I cannot wait for the day that I get to see you again, to get my hug and my "little boy" back again. I love you seany 093006 always and forever <3