Sometimes I realize that I put you on a pedestal. And I am sorry for that; you make me perfect, us together ; fighting or not is perfect and I don't really notice how much I depend on you . I'm proud to say that you are my boyfriend and I'm proud to say that I love you. Your beautiful inside and out and I have never really thought about it before but you're the second person that I have honestly loved in my life as a boyfriend, you complete me and I don't want to admit that further than here. Sometimes I think about showing you these entries to show you how much I love you, but I dont want to be vulnerable again, and although I am already; I dont want to publicize it. I'm scared to lose you and I'm scared to think about losing you, these last few days I have thought about it and how I would handle different situations: I would have to let you go if it is what you wanted, but I also never want to see the back of your head walking away from me like my daddy did almost ten years ago. I'd give anything to just be with you, even just for one minute out of a whole day. I love you more than anything.