Ask me why I'm sad and il tell you forever. I domt think that I will ever move forward from where i have been, and I think it's because I have low esteem in myself. I think that I will suffer from that for the rest of my life. I will always be looking over my shoulder for the "signs" when I really should just move on. David I love you and I won't hurt you, I'm not leaving you unless you make me. I don't know how or where you found that being safe is important to me, bit I dont like it. I don't think you realize how much it means to me that I have found someone who somewhat replaces sean in my life. Not all the way but for the most part I'm free from Sean. And as I write this with your drunk ass in my arms I realize thAt this relationship, with you; is the most important thing in my life, I never want to be without you, I need you. You make me safe.