Junior,

I'm still not sure how I have managed to move forward everyday without you here with me. I amaze myself with how strong I've really forces myself to be. I find myself wondering what life would be like if you were still here, knowing that I couldn't have saved or changed you and your destiny is probably the hardest pill to swallow. I am beyond happy with how my life has turned out, I have a beautiful life, a wonderful, loving boyfriend who I know loves me just as much as I love him in return and for that I am forever grateful. I have done nothing but changed my life since losing you, and pushed for a life that I knew you would want to see me have. But it still hurts knowing that you have to watch from so far away. You've managed to help mold my life and mold me into the woman I am since I was 14 years old, you continue to push me everyday to better myself and never become the depressed, low self worth girl that I used to be. You have given me so much life, it is very hard to explain how much you mean to me to someone, without taking away from Matt how much he means to me now. I hope that you never think I ever have forgotten how much love we have shared, or how important our story will always be to me. You will always be my soul mate, you will always be my Sean. I appreciate so much how understanding Matthew is of you and I hope that you picked him special for me because I really needed this one, you always know whats best for me.

love you forever. miss you always.

xoxo