jordan lilly

"Regret inNumbers: you guys brok eup right
xoShelKate: no
Regret inNumbers: WHATTTT
xoShelKate: i wishxoShelKate: i know
Regret inNumbers: WHAT THE FUCK
xoShelKate: i told you ive got to be the most stupidest girl in the world.
Regret inNumbers: tell him right now
Regret inNumbers: yo
Regret inNumbers: asshole
Regret inNumbers: you had SEX with someother girl after wed been dating 9 months
Regret inNumbers: i dont stand for cheaters
Regret inNumbers: peace up outta this relationship
xoShelKate: haha i really wish i could.
xoShelKate: but nine months with his kid has been way to long ive lost friendships and bestfriends i lost my life over the past year.
xoShelKate: i dont know anything more than himxoShelKate: its horrible.
xoShelKate: and hes all like i cant live without you shit. i try to kil myself bc of this and like all this stuff.
Regret inNumbers: he said that or you do
xoShelKate: he said that
Regret inNumbers: oh
Regret inNumbers: well im a guy
xoShelKate: he would kiss himseld.
Regret inNumbers: and i know guys will say anything patehtic enough to get back a girl
xoShelKate: haha i know.
Regret inNumbers: or to get one in the first place
Regret inNumbers: i know its hard to let go
Regret inNumbers: for innnnnnnstance
Regret inNumbers: i was/have been/am (depends on how i think about it) in love with onye for like a year almost. and like 3 weeks ago, i told her
Regret inNumbers: and she was like
Regret inNumbers: i have felt the same since we met
Regret inNumbers: but i dont want to persue things because it will fuck up our friendship
Regret inNumbers: and i was/am heartbroken and devestated
Regret inNumbers: cause we'd hook up a little bit and it would be like ugghhh fucking with my head.
xoShelKate: thats horrible. im sorry
Regret inNumbers: =/
Regret inNumbers: but like
Regret inNumbers: she was trying to protect our friendship by not persuing anything
Regret inNumbers: and now its completely fuckkkkedddd
Regret inNumbers: like we are hardly on speaking terms and we are really awkward and all this hit
Regret inNumbers: so it actually messed itup more to not persue it
Regret inNumbers: anyway
Regret inNumbers: im being forced to pull myself away from her
Regret inNumbers: and its hard
Regret inNumbers: like
Regret inNumbers: reallllly hardf
Regret inNumbers: buti know i have to
Regret inNumbers: and you gottaxoShelKate: see thats what sucks is letting go after thats the life you take on for so long and set your heart onto.
Regret inNumbers: yeah
xoShelKate: this past year ive became a totally diffrent person. sean has basiclly controlled everything i do. during school i didnt talk ot hangout with most of my friends i lost alex and jammella for a while and all my time was on him and his hockey games. and like he always said forever. i want to marry you i love you more than anything
Regret inNumbers: ughh
xoShelKate: and its like you get lost in the moments when guys talk to you like that and you forget that its just how they are because thats how every girl imagines their perfect boy. and i look at it now and hes like i love you more than anything and all i can think is its all a lie.
xoShelKate: everything hes ever told me was a lie.
Regret inNumbers: its fucked up i know what you mean
Regret inNumbers: because if im right about how i think you feel its like
Regret inNumbers: hes had so much control over you
Regret inNumbers: that you almost need his consent to tell him off
xoShelKate: basically. theres three things that are keeping me from breaking up with him
xoShelKate: 1) i know i cant stay away i know that if we were to break up i would be with him again in a month tops.
xoShelKate: 2) that means starting over from ten
xoShelKate: and three) he trys to kill himself every night. i wont let him get off the phone until he is asleep and i know it.
Regret inNumbers: if hes that messed up he needs help, like professional help
xoShelKate: i said i would be in his life forever. whether it was just to be there for whatever he needed,il be his friend but i dont know if i can handle going into my room and knowing that thats where i found out what he did. i dont like going in there becaue its like he took my room away from me.
xoShelKate: i know. and like youve seen my arm i have a heart on my hand to. its something thats noyt me at all. i dont cut myself it was like just something i said i would never do and i did it. but him he is serious.
xoShelKate: and like i get scared because he bails out on doing it because he cant let himself. i dont want him out of the world. i want him to be by my side no matter what.
Regret inNumbers: yeah
Regret inNumbers: its a fine line you walk
xoShelKate: really thoug.xoShelKate: its been the worst week and a half ever
xoShelKate: the only night i got out and didnt think about it was when we wnt to northern lights
Regret inNumbers: thats the magic of jordan lillly
xoShelKate: im sorry i just like blurted out my life on you.
Regret inNumbers: its totally cool
Regret inNumbers: i like to help people or at least give them someone to vent to
xoShelKate: its okay ifd you now think im a total crazy person ahah
xoShelKate: thanks
xoShelKate: and yeah it really is the jordad lilly magic :-)
Regret inNumbers: hahahaxoShelKate: ohh did you get the pictures?
Regret inNumbers: yes
xoShelKate: fagot asian
Regret inNumbers: im assuming that asian girl is the cunt
xoShelKate: yeah
xoShelKate: haha
Regret inNumbers: AZNs
xoShelKate: i saw that first picture of her in the bathing suit while i was witjh my friend lisa
xoShelKate: and im like PLEASE tell me shes fatter than me. i will go anorexic if not
Regret inNumbers: haha
Regret inNumbers: no
Regret inNumbers: really
Regret inNumbers: your body is perfect
Regret inNumbers: :-P
Regret inNumbers: thats me drooling over it
Regret inNumbers: hahaha
xoShelKate: thanks <333
xoShelKate: haha
Regret inNumbers: girls who are way skinny are gros
sxoShelKate: haha
Regret inNumbers: im not kidding
xoShelKate: i was by the pool today and lisa was over again
xoShelKate: and i got out on the deck and i sucked in as much as i could because one of our frends breeanne does it and it was the grossest thing ive ever witnessed im not going to lie
Regret inNumbers: ew haha
Regret inNumbers: id rather see you naked than any azn ever
xoShelKate: haha
xoShelKate: i hate asian.
xoShelKate: offically
Regret inNumbers: hahaha yzz
xoShelKate: aha
Regret inNumbers: yo
xoShelKate: yo...
Regret inNumbers: these lyrics describe yur situation so well
Regret inNumbers: You reach for meSuch love for a traitorLike I amMy tears tonight prove I find I'm worthlessYou're all I am
xoShelKate: indeed they do."

truth. even friends i have just met are there for me. jordan lilly everybody. the best boy ive ever met. hes the greatest listener. and i love talking to him because he really does help, he brings himself into the problem and relates something he has gone though. im glad that ive learned to surround myself with people that are genuine and kind.