Sometimes I don't know how i got here. So motivated to be someone that you'd be proud of. I live for you Sean. I'm living my life the best way I know how at this point; trying not to make a wrong turn or decision because you no longer can. You've thrown so much positivity in my direction this past year and I cannot thank you enough for always keeping me afloat. I know that you are with me but u never want to forget you, I never want there to be a day where I don't think of you or miss you. I know you would want me to move on with my life and be happy; find a boy and start a life for myself- do all the things we talked about doing. I know you want all the happiness in the world for me- but you can't just leave me and think that it's best for me to forget about you. I truly think you control some of my thoughts or dreams somehow. I never see you anymore- NEVER in months. Too many months. All I want to do is be reminded you're actually still here. I miss your family- mom, nana and pa I haven't gone to see them since your anniversary. Life isn't the same without my best friend and I just don't think that feeling will ever go away. Please don't leave my side junior. I will forever need you and will forever need your memory to keep myself going. I'm doing all of this for you- to live a life you can't. Il see you soon than