gowing up

"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back."-lucas

im going to grow up. i am going to get my life on track. i am going to have someone be proud of me. im going to get things in order. i know how to take care of myself and i know right from wrong. ive got alot to deal with but i know that i can sort it out. ive been in over my head and i know that if i put my mind to it that i can do it on my own. i cant believe that i am back to these, i cant believe that i am this alone but i feel kind of better i kinda feel like even if im kidding myself i feel like sometimes i have things sorted out. i have to grow up i have to start and i dont think im gunna do a good job on my own. but im to stubborn to ask for help. thanks mommy.