I didn't expect this to happen to me. I didn't think you'd be okay with it or even allow me to find someone new. I know you made this happen and I know you threw Michael into my life for a reason. I see a lot of you in him and I haven't actually ever said that. It scares me how much I like this boy but I know you expect that out of me. I just hope you don't think this is another "you need a guy to make you happy" situations- you always pissed me off when you said that to me. I would do anything to have you back here with me if I could. I still can't believe your gone; I can't believe I lost the love of my life. I know il never find you in someone else- I know il never be okay but I finally see some hope in life recently.  I don't have to bury myself in my textbooks and homework and working just to feel important to something. I no longer have to fall off the map in order to find peace and be able to breathe. I'm finally finding myself smiling again and breathing positivity again.  I can not thank you enough for pushing me in the right direction and always ALWAYS having my back and throwing things at me that I need. You look out for me and I want you to know that it doesn't go unnoticed. I love you so much junior. There will never be a day where your absence will be comforting to me. Your apart of me; you always will be. Please continue to watch over me; but please visit me; I still need you. I miss you cutie. Always and forever